HEALING THROUGH REFLECTION

     Hi. This is the first time I would be blogging again. Actually, I cannot remember how to do this anymore but I always find it comforting to write about a lot of things. So what's currently happening in my life.

1. I got married to the love of my life last January 2, 2020

2. We had Avery last March 3, 2023

3. Became a Diplomate in Lifestyle Medicine last December 2023

4. Started teaching as an Associate Professor in Cavite State University College of Medicine in Indang, Cavite.

5. We get to experience concert of Twice and Coldplay last 2024

6. Avery started Montessori school every Saturday last July 2025.

7. We got a dishwasher!  

    So far, life has been uneventful besides the ones I have stated above. But significant events have tested my whole being. Grief, anger, despair. 

1. Lost my Marco last April 1,2019. Fvcking April Fool's right? Cried to sleep. Even went to work while bawling my eyes out because "kulang ng magduty, kelan ka babalik?" And I was like, can you not see I'm grieving?

2. Got in a huge fight with dad last December 2022. I remember ready to throw arms while being 7 months pregnant.

3. Went into emergency C-section due to dystocia. Double cord coil documented.

4. Lost Strike last June 27, 2024.

5. My maternal aunt was diagnosed with Dementia-type Alzheimer's Disease and I have a hunch that we all have that gene and it hasn't skipped a generation since my great grandmother.

6. My mother broke her right clavicle due to my nephew's aggressive play. I am fuming upon learning about this and as I recall this incident I still get filled with anger.

7. My good father-in-law is currently in Canada and is critical condition. We just learned that he had advance directives of DNR if ever the worst possible condition happens.

8. I still mourn about my brother's death up to this day to the point I'm having physical symptoms like chest pain while crying my heart out.

    So, that's basically it. I think writing about the good & the bad helps me heal what is broken. I mean, it is still broken but I as a parent, I try to navigate feelings because I wasn't able to do so. My husband has help me through this kind of stuff since for me, he is more emotionally matured.

    I don't know how to end a blog. But here's to consistent blogging for record purposes in case I manifest symptoms of Alzheimer's Disease.